Well, it's snowing... Which is lovely and all, visually, but my ligaments have morphed into old dry elastic bands ie they go stretch... stretch.. snap! under very little pressure meaning I pull a lightswitch cord or brush my hair and my arm comes out of the socket.. I turn to get the milk from the fridge and my leg pops out.. it's horrific, upsetting, massively painful, frustrating, and not bloody convenient, frankly. AND I have yet another chest infection, and yet again am struggling to breathe (yes, I am quiting smoking soon, honest. My gp shouldnt really say this but he says he does not judge me for it as I had to quit most of my lifestyle, and drinking as it doesnt mix with the meds, so smoking is my one little vice/indulgence I have left, and there's no good time to start quitting in a life like mine. I know excuses, excuses, I'll have to focus on what Lloyd Pye told me, that it turns all your skin (inc your genitals) to leather, as the tanine tans the skin like leather through the blood supply from beneith... ew!)

The only way I can sum it up is this.. I coughed, and it put my hip out. Thats how bad my joints are today, thats how bad my chest is today.

Also there will be non of my usual bonbardment of photos and paintings today as I have no files to upload, as I am currently on a borrowed comp, my laptop having died (containing all my artwork from the last 10 years and more importantly currently my dla application details and appeal stuff.. so now I have no copies of my own (yes, I forgot to back up, I'm an idiot. I know.) I am assured it may be able to be fixed/files retrieved atleast but meanwhile I'm pretty nervous, and annoyed because my now empty weekend was ment to be spent setting up my etsy page to get more of my artwork out there so I can attempt some day to make my own living and not have to jump through bleedin' hoops anymore!!!! It seems a long way off at the moment, considering how hard it is to paint now, but I'm trying really hard at physio and I hopefully will be getting ring splints soon, so my hands might be more robust and less painful when I have better structure in muscle and silver :) Alot of my plans involve my hands not being useless. Fingers crossed (geddit?! hehe groan at will, but I loves a pun.)

Speaking of artwork.. I've been making masks for a masquerade ball, which has been alot of fun, cant wait to see my best mate's face when she see's hers! :D

Anyways, I'm all typed out

Nighty night x